Hello friends!
I’m trying something new, and sending this to you via Substack, which is much easier to use and cheaper (free) than my other email system. I also like how it feels more like a normal email. I’ve been wanting to share my art and writing with you in a personal way that isn’t at the mercy of the algorithm, so I’m experimenting.
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New art: “Solstice” June 21, 2021
I came out for the first time 10 years ago today. It was summer solstice 2011, I was about to turn 25. I was married to a guy I’d been with since I was a teenager. Danielle was a new friend, and I was the happiest I had ever been. At the time I had no idea I was queer and falling in love. I didn’t know queer people. I had no concept of queerness. All I knew was that I had been unhappy in a way I’d never been able to explain, and that when I was around Danielle I really wanted to live.
So that night, my ex and I went for a walk to see the sunset. He said, “You know, I don’t think I’ve ever actually seen you in love until I saw you hanging out with Danielle.” And I burst into tears and we stayed up all night and by morning we had decided to separate and I began a totally new life.
The following six months were, on the one hand, bliss. I loved being around Danielle so much, and I couldn’t get enough of her. It was also a series of rapid losses. Coming out ended most of our closest relationships. We lost our jobs and moved far away. I started having disabling panic attacks. I remember feeling so acutely how the days really were shorter and darker as our life moved away from the world and into quiet and privacy.
And then, of course, the light started to come back.
Some days.
Others.
News
I’m making more tiny flags. I also found a large bi flag that I made for the last drop and then lost because I put it up somewhere high to dry and I am very short. So, many small flags and one big bi flag will be available tomorrow Tuesday, June 22 at 8AM Pacific at britchida.com.
I’m recording a podcast episode today with Thank You For Coming Out. If all goes well, and I don’t get too shy and ask them to not air it after all, it will be up in July. I’ll keep you posted!
This is the best timing. I just deleted insta and thought I would miss seeing your content and here you come directly in my emails. I love it!!
Love this format and interactive aspect! Your coming out story is 💪 and the smol flags are making my day. Keep it up!! - Ana V